Scrabble

I won with Prince in English Scrabble :))) I am very proud of myself.

Just a quick update

So far I did not loose my job. It is not as bad as it seems, we are getting new client and maybe one more.
My managers are here this week so I'm crazy busy with meetings non stop. But they are nice people. Tonight we're going for a dinner, hope it will be fun.
Amsterdam was great, but I will write more when I'll have some time. Work is very busy as usual and at home I don't feel like sitting in front of the computer again, after the whole day at work.
Take care people.

Surprice!!!

I couldn't sleep for the past two nights. I was nervous without any reason. Now, I know why: I may lost my job just in a month. The client I'm working for (let's call him A) merged with another company (B). My company (C) provides services and technology related to purchasing. And A was fairly happy. However, in Europe A is smaller than B. B had his own model. And they have just decided for model that B was using. Only in EMEA. So C in the US is fine, but my team is screwed. Well, there are people in worst situation, who worked their whole life for A - partly employed by A, then by C. We have at least one another client. But the new client is mainly French and I would have to work really hard to be able to speak French again. On the other hand maybe it's good.
I'm scared.

You should learn Polish

Just a short upate for English speakers :)

Yes, I called Prince Rob. I was sad and many other things and I didn't even notice. I definitelly didn't do it on purpose. He is still my prince. My only prince. And best. And I am not going to allow it to be changed. (BTW that's to you Prince too: don't even try to leave this country without me. Don't even thing about it. I will not let you. I may even consider working the land - just not in Russia.)

I am better now than last week. Maybe not actually now, I'm getting sick and I'm hungry like a mad dog.

BTW you all should learn Polish or Czech so I don't have to write in two languages :)

Kolejny piatek

Wszyscy mi napisaliscie madre rzeczy, a najbardziej dziekuje Marysi za wysilek :)

Jest mi juz lepiej, o wiele lepiej. Uspokoilam sie. Ostatni weekend byl piekny, wiec wbieglam na Vysehrad w sobote, a w niedziele bylismy na Branickych Skalach, a potem na dlugim spacerze bez okreslonego celu po dziwnych zakatkach Pragi, gdzie jeszcze nie bylismy i gdzie na pewno zaden turysta sie nie zapusci - bo nie bylo tak nic ciekawego :) Rozmawialismy tez o przenoszeniu sie do Szkocji, w koncu otwarcie powiedzialam, co mi sie w tym planie nie podoba, jakie mam obawy itp. Dyskusja nie skonczyla sie dobrze, oczywiscie sie poryczalam, ale troszke sobie wyjasnilismy.

Ojej, az sie czuje lepiej. Fizycznie, bo jak przyszlam do pracy, jeszcze chyba bylam pijana z wczorajszej imprezy. W koncu skonczylismy po 3ciej w nocy, a rano musialam wstawac. Ale bylo cudownie. No, poza jedna rzecza. Bylo cudownie, bo dobrze grali, wytanczylam sie za wszystkie czasy, Elizabeth przyszla na troszke i pogadalam sobie. Bylo zle, bo chyba kolega z pracy sobie za duzo wyobraza. Na szczescie, jesli jest trzezwy, pilnuje sie, bo wie o moim Ksieciu. Do tego jest bardzo fajny i mozna z nim pogadac normalnie, nie chcialabym miec jakis jaj, chce miec tylko kumpla. W kazdym razie przez ostatnie 2 godziny imprezy dalismy we trojke dobry popis na parkiecie - ja i dwoch kolegow, obaj super tancza, takze sobie uzylam. Do trzeciej - debil ze mnie. Jakbym nie wiedzialam, ze rano musze wstac do pracy. Nie przypominam sobie, zeby juz kiedys cos takiego mi sie stalo - obudzic sie i byc nadal pijana :) Najwyrazniej troszke za duzo wczoraj wypilam :) No coz, czasem trzeba sie wyszalec.

W ogole nie jestem pewna, co ja pisze.... jakis taki potok slow, potok mysli. Jesli same glupoty, zawsze mozecie stronke zamknac, wyrzucic do kosza i zapomniec.

Couldn't Care Less

Oh my heart can’t carry much more
It’s really, really aching and soar
My heart don’t care anymore
I really can’t bear more
My hands don’t work like before
I shiver and I scrape at your door
My heart can’t carry much more
But you couldn’t care less
Could you

Your face don’t look like before
It’s really not like yours anymore
Your eyes don’t like me no more
They quiver and they shift to the floor
My heart don’t beat like beforeI
t’s never been this lone
No my blood don’t flow anymore
And you couldn’t care less
Could you

Could we stop and sleep for a spare
We can turn this stitch into a ware
And send that old devil back to hell
But we don’t care do we
Baby let’s stop and sleep for a spare
We can turn this stitch into a ware
And send that old devil back to hell

Your back’s not straight like before
You really shouldn’t care in me no more
I’m much too heavy for you
I’m really quite a mess, yes
We just don’t care anymore
We’re cricket and were cut to the core
We’re just not there anymore
But we really don’t care do we
No, we couldn’t care less
We couldn’t care less
Could we?

That's more or less how I feel. But don't missnderstand me, I am not talking about Rob. It's more general feeling about everything.

RUN AWAY!!! I want to fly away

No dobra, nie jestem najlepsza w regularnym pisaniu, ale jak wszyscy juz zapewne wiecie, mam duzo pracy. A do tego cos w rodzaju depresji, ktora mecze wszystkich dookola tzn. glownie Roba.
Nie wiem, czy na tym polega dorosle zycie, ale ja w niczym nie widze sensu. Rano wstaje, ide do pracy, wracam, jem, ide spac. I tak w kolko az przyjdzie weekend, kiedy tez nie robie nic wyjatkowego. Nic, co byloby interesujace dla innych, co pozostawiloby po mnie slad.
Nie, zebym miala powodu do narzekania tak naprawde. Praca jest ok, jak to praca. Ale jedyne, co tak na prawde mi daje, to kasa. Tylko ze nie wiem, jaka praca dawalaby mi satysfakcje. Taki szarak jak ja raczej nie znajdzie nagle czegos wybitnego, pasjonujacego. Bo jak moge, skoro nawet nie wiem, co jest moja pasja.
Takze chodze do pracy, trace codziennie ok 10 godzin na cos, co wydaje mi sie bez sensu.
A do tego moj zwiazek osiagnal juz taki punkt, ze jest po prostu dobrze. Oczywiscie, czasem sie poklocimy, czasem spedzimy cudowny wieczor. Ale ogolnie jest po prostu ok. A ok dla mnie oznacza, ze just nie ma wzlotow, zadne z nas sie juz az tak nie stara o to drugie, bo wszystko zadecydowane - jestesmy razem, a wiec po co sie jeszcze wysilac....

I tak zyje z dnia na dzien bez nadzieji tak na prawde, ze moge cos zmienic. Bo przeciez nie jest zle, wiec po co ryzykowac, ze sie zmieni na gorzej.

Juz kiedys czulam sie podobnie, wtedy pojechalam do Szwecji i zmienilam chlopaka. Teraz nie chce powtarzac - zdecydowanie nie tej drugiej czesci. Chociaz czasem mnie kusi, ale ciii, nie mowcie nic Robowi. Z drugiej strony kusic kusi, ale ja nie podlegam tym pokusom, a to chyba najwazniejsze. Bo ja Roba kocham i chce z nim zostac, ale wszystko jest takie jakies dziwne, mdle, do niczego nie prowadzace - bez sensu po prostu... Czy ja gdzies zrobilam blad, czy zycie takie jest? Czy gdzies stracilam swoja szanse. Przeoczylam jakis zakret na drodze zycia. Oj, zaczyna sie robic poetycko, albo raczej "poetycko", bo ja zbyt poetycka nie jestem i nie umiem byc. W kazdym razie znak, ze trzeba wracac do pracy.

Mam nadzieje ze Wy radziceie sobie lepiej z zyciem.

Martusia

Wczoraj mnie spotkalo wielkie szczescie - Martusia sie do mnie odezwala na gadu, a do tego jeszcze do mnie zadzwonila :)))))

Jak wracaja wspomnienia

It was a very nice weekend. We had a girls night on Friday at Courtney's place with junk food, 80's movies and a lot of laugh. I slept most of Saturday and got up just in time to go for Mark's birthday. We went to a sport bar to play darts, but they also mentioned something called "air-hokey". I was busy with darts, but when I finally went to see it, it was a great suprise. The air hokey was something we had in Swiniarnia in Krakow. We spend many many hours playing it at the beginning of studies. I just don't remember the name. I need to ask Gucio, he should remember. It was great! I won with everybody :)
And now it's Monday again.

Let it snow

It's snowing!!!! Yupppi!!!!! It actually started yesterday, for the first time this year (season, winter), and it's still snowing. It's beutiful. I love it.

More pics from the US

Just so you all belive me that I was in the US fo Xmas, some pics:

Opening present.

Xmas tree

Xmas Eve on the boat

Washington monument

Capital building.

Crazy Xmas decoration

Me in stocks.

Ships that brought first colonists to Jamestown (first sucessful English colony in America)

Big come back

Welcme back! I'm still alive, everything is fine. I've been crazy busy at work and at home my Prine will not me let use the computer :) No, it's not true, I usually hate computers after 10 hours of work.
Christmas was wonderfull. Everything was great: the crown familly, the palace (it's actually very close to being a palace), the places we went to (Williamsburg, Jameestown, DC). It was also very different and didn't feel like Christmas at all, party because of the weather. Here it was simillar, but we went on the boat:


It was strange without Chrismas Eve, big dinner and 20 people. Nonetheless, it was great.
On the New Year's Eve we went for a dinner to the best restaurant in the world, called Pacific Rim, and we had a flaming volcano drink :) We also had some delicious food. Then we came back to Mike and Kerrie's for a nice evening. We almost missed midnight :D We were smoking and realized that it was midninght just a little bit too late. It was great to meet Mike and Kerrie, after I heard so much about them. Their daughter Andy is sooooo cute.

I had a great time, very relaxing, out of the cities, out of Prague, which was nice.

I discovered that there is Warszawa in Virginia:




I would put some more pics but I'm having issues, so some other time.

After we came back, I had crazy time at work with the new 2 folks in my team. But I like it, the atmosphere is nice and I like all the 3 of them. This Thursday I also went for a party with people from work and it was great! I had such a good time. Maybe because I feel more comfortable speaking Czech, maybe because of the music (I was dancing - and I haven't danced for almost a year probably), maybe because it wasn't planned. I don't know, but I had a great time. Now I'm going to join people from work more often.

Jesienna plucha.

The weather in Prague is terrible - cloudy, rainy, cold and grey so I thought I should at least make my blog look more happy then the reality. (The picture was of course taken by Prince.)

I spoke with Lida about our blogs - her is always so much more interesting, because she doesn't write only "I did this, I went there", her is more philosophical. And more interesting, although I have sometimes problems understanding (it's all in Czech). Well, I'm no philosopher like she is so my blog will stay as it is. If it will stay for long.

So today we did Christmas Shopping part II. It wasn't as enjoyabale as part I (which I wrote about before but I guess in Polish), because of the weather. We went to Christmas markets at Stromestske Namesti and Vaclavske Namest and the market between Staromak and Vaclavac, by the big Ceska Sporitelna bank. Prince did some gifts shopping, I did a little, but I got me a scarf. And I got a cold or a flu (introduction to a flu) or something. Or maybe I'm just getting old, but my bones and musles hurt. So I slept for the whole afternoon and now I'm wondering how I will sleep at night but actaully I could go to bed now. I read in a magazine that there is a disease called hypersomnia. So maybe I am not as lazy as everybody thought, I'm just sick! Hehe. I need a lot of sleep otherwise I cannot function normally. I'm tired - good night :)

Tajemstvi

Yesterday Lida invited me to go with her to the theater (theater, not cinema) to see a musical "Tajemstvi". It was very good. I had some problems with understanding but I enjoyed it very much. It was written by Daniel Landa and I like his music. And the play made me think about sence of life and dead (the answer is of course 42 :) but what is the question?).
Today I'm terribly tired. And lazy. I just don't want to do anything, I want to go to sleep and that's all. And it's just 10 a.m. On the other hand it's Friday so it's good.

Swieta ida

Tym razem po polsku, bo nie chce zeby sie wszyscy dowiedzieli, co im szykujemy na prezenty swiateczne :) W sobote bylismy na wielkim polowaniu i nawet wypadlo ok. Mam juz wiekszosc prezentow, jeszcze tylko mi moje kochanie zostalo. Ale mam juz pomysl, tylko musze miec czas, zeby go zrealizowac.
Wiemy juz mniej wiecej, jak i gdzie spedzimyokres swiateczny. Wyjezdzamy stad w poniedzialek 18go, jedziemy pociagiem do Frankfurtu, stamtad lapiemy samolot do USA! A tam nas odbieraja Roba rodzice. Plan wyglada super, tylko zeby mnie wpuscili do ich pieknego kraju (to bylo powiedziane ironicznie). Kilka dni pobedziemy w Wirginii, a po swietach jedziemy do DC, do kumpla Roba i tam tez spedzimy Sylwka.
To takie plany, zobaczymy jak bedzie wygladac rzeczywistosc. Trzymajcie kciuki za loty.

Lazy blogger

Just to let you know, Prince post something on his blog. And it's funny.

Friday :)))

I appologize for not working more often. Work is crazy... I'm in the office for 10-12 hours, come back home and just go to bed. That's the way my life looks now. But we're also interviewing new people so hopefully there will be someone new soon. I cannot live like this much longer.
Today Prince has a Christmas party, so I have the whole appartment to myslef - I will take looong shower and watch some Czech or Polish or Slovak movie. And maybe read. The most important thing is that I will do absolutely nothing!

And now a story about what can you loose and find:
So my last day in Poland I was packing and I couldn't find my return ticket. I looked in my bag, backpack, everywhere around my desk, under the bed, inside the bed, behind the bed, in the car.... everywhere. I called the bus comapny but they said they cannot give me another, so I was prepared to buy another ticket (as expensive as the two way I lost). Half a day destroyed because of this stupid ticket. So we got to Warsaw, to the bus station and I went to talk to the bus driver about how much the ticket will be exactly. And ... it was for free - he handeled me my old ticket, I just left it in the bus.
That was the first part of the story. The second is better.
A week before going to Poland, it was very cold in Prague so I decided that I will take out my winter coat (very long, big coat). So I looked in the wordrobe we keep clothes we don't use too often - no winter coat. I looked in my regular closet - no winter coat. In the bed, in Prince's closet, under the second bed.... and? no coat. After panicking for 2 hours and trying to figure out how and where I could loose it (together with Prince), I decided to have another look inside the bed. And what I thought was a blanket, appeared to be my winter coat!
Great! I think I'm loosing my mind. The only thought that keeps me all right is that there are worse people (i.e. Lida).

Have a good weekend!

Sweet home

I'm in Lublin, at home. It's so good to be here with my familly. I missed them a lot. And I will miss them again. It's difficult: I'm very close with my familly and I'd like to be able to see them like every weekend (ok, maybe every other) but it's not possible. However, I think I have to come here more often. I feel here so good and far away from all the problems (I hope I won't dream about my work tonight). And I could come more often, I'm just really lazy, especially if I have to plan such a big trip. Now, I can bring Prince with me, as I got back the big bed to my room, so nobody has to sleep on the floor (my sister had it for the last few years so it was always a problem but now she bought a new bed with armchairs so I got mine back - it's very complicated if you have guests in such a small apartment).
So today I got to Warsaw and we were half an hour late but my dad was not at the bus station. I walked by the parking lot hoping I will find him there but no sigh of any car with Lublin's licence plate. So I sat and waited, walked aroung for a bit and become worried: what if he had an accident; maybe he just overslept; but they would let me know; but what if.... all over in my head. My dad doesn't have a mobile so I couldn't call him. Finally he came - an hour later that we were suppoze to meet. They were doing some road construction and he ended up further than the airport (anyone who know Warsaw even only a bit knows that the Bus Station West is nowhere near the airport). And the funniest thing is that when we were going to Lublin, he missed the turn from the main highway. And it never hapens to him! He was very tired, he got up at 4 a.m. just to pick me up. He is the best Dad ever!
So today we talked a lot, we went shopping (I did some Christmas shopping), talked some more, my aunt visited us for a little while, I showed them pics from the US and we talked some more. And now I'm ready to bed, very very tired, and instead of sleeping I'm writting a very long post... OK, good night everyone! Have a good day tomorrow!

Happy birthday to me

I'm better now, better than yesterday. Although it's Monday. I was in this stupid mood yesterday when I cry without any reason and everything sets me off. Prince is walking patience. I wouldn't stand it myslef, if I were him.
Last week was quite nice. We went out on Monday with Andrea and Jirka (IT guy - Price was pretending he's jelous of him). We kind of celebrated my birthday which was on Tuesday but Prince works until 9 p.m. on Tuesdays so we couln't really do anything. So it was nice evening, I got a Pilgrim ring (very very cute, with blue flowers). Andrea knew I love Pilgrim but cannot afford it (it's Dannish company, they have really cute jewellery). On Tuesday I got present from Prince: beautiful necklace. I will take a picture of it and post it. It's cooper with 3 little flowers, handmade. It's really beutiful. And then on Wednesday I got 2 cards at work.
It was strange birthday because I didn't really celebrate. I mean there was no party or anything, but I didn't mind. It was just different. And I'm old: quarter of a century! Well, it didn't change anything: the big step for ma was to finish studies, start work and be 100% responsibile for myself.
Oh, I have a story. Few weeks ago I received an email that during my company's "all-hands meeting" I was announced as one of the Spotlight Award Winner's. The strangest thing was that I have no idea what is the Spotlight Award! I thought it was some kind of lotery (during similar meeting in Prague somebody won mp3 player, somebody else gym membership). So I was waiting and waiting and finally on Friday I got the letter. I was shocked! Letter signed by the biggest boss of my company, with quotes from cllients how great I am, in leather cover! But that's not all. In the letter I found small gold envelope with American Express cheques for.... 250$!!!!! It was a good end of a week :)

Niedzielne popoludnie

Wlasnie sie poklocilam z Robem o glupote. Alez ze mnie niedobra dziewczyna.... Szczerze mowiac, mam to gdzies w tym momencie. Tak zreszta, jak wszystko inne. Juz bym chciala byc w domu i przynajmniej przez pare dni nie myslec o pracy, Robie i jego pracy i problemach i wzystkim innym. Mam dosyc stresowania sie wlasna praca i do tego jego. To nie moj problem ze dostal awans, ktory oznacza mniej czasu na pierdoly. I mam juz dosyc wysluchiwania ciaglych narzekan.
Poza tym jestem juz stara: 25 lat, cwierc wieku.
Ide spac, przynajmniej nie bede musiala myslec o problemach. Bede o nich snic...